POSA™ Blog

by Lili Bee and Cassie Kingan

The best part, the closest-to-our-heart part of having a website and blog like PoSARC is the abundance of personal e-mails we receive from partners who find us online or on Facebook and want to share news about what's going on in their relationships and how it's affecting their lives. While some are primarily looking for quick direction or help, many write in, needing a safe place to share their stories of heartbreak, confusion and also their eventual victories. They know we understand because we've been through betrayal trauma, too.  

Along with the many profoundly intimate, personal stories that are shared with us from those new to learning about their mate's sexual deceptions, often as the months and years pass by we also receive detailed updates from our readers, allowing us to witness how their stories evolve over time. It constantly amazes us just how many connections we have with women we've never even met (yet!), all over the world.

Some time ago when we posted our video on Why Do I Stay? The Biochemistry of the Loyalty Bond, the sheer number of comments and private emails we received in response surprised us. What most of those messages pointed to was the consensus amongst almost all of them: women reported feeling stuck in a type of paralysis caused by the pressure to stay with their cheater and "stick it out" despite the constant chaos he was causing.

Some of this pressure to stay with him was internally-generated through religious conditioning, internalized family messages, fear of being alone or starting over, fear of being stigmatized, financial insecurity and more. The women who wrote to us were astute (and brave) enough to be able to recognize this pressure on themselves, no small feat; there are so many unseen forces working against women considering a change-up of the status quo that it takes vast amounts of courage to call out even blatant injustice in their close relationships.

Then there is the external pressure. Even when these women who felt trapped had finally reached their limits on the number of lies, so-called "slips and relapses", trickle-truths and his anger/resentment that they could accept from their mates, often their therapists, clergy or recovery coaches would counsel them to stay longer before making any decisions about their futures. 

Unsurprisingly, for most of them in already spirit-breaking relationships, the proverbial quicksand just got deeper and stickier. Abusive relationships do that.

Making the decision to cut ties with a man perpetrating Intimate Partner Abuse in order to regain one's own sanity and self-respect is never an easy decision - we want women who feel stuck to know they have more options than they think, or that they've been told they have by others who may have an investment in them continuing to stay.

Better yet, we'd like to demonstrate what un-stuckness looks like. Because without seeing examples of actual women just like them who have liberated themselves from this slow torture and often, treatment-induced-trauma, they can't see a path through. And without the ability to see other survivors who are actually experiencing some happiness again in their lives post-relationship, women who feel trapped cannot even imagine a freer life.

We asked ourselves: what can we do to help these trauma-entrenched women so they're not doomed to suffer in limbo forever? What would we have needed to help free ourselves when we were in the same situations? What did help those who emancipated themselves?

Sharing the Survivor Series here is a way to help women envision a pathway out of feeling so ensnared in the nightmarish loop playing out in their relationships, month after month and year after year, even long after many have enrolled their men in "sex addiction" treatment and 12-step programs that can offer no better than the approximately 5% success rate of any addiction recovery.

While everyone hopes their man will be the exception to the dismally high failure rate, it isn't prudent to tie our well-being and identity to whether these men succeed or not; that's entirely up to them. 
As partners, bypassing that fact is a recipe for serious depression, anxiety or worse. We need to keep ourselves in reality at the same time as we keep one eye open for whether anything substantial is changing at home within a reasonable period of time.

In the meantime, if you feel mired down in your own situation, unable to see a way through to some peace on the other side of this, we hope to inspire you with our new video today:

Survivor Video Series
Our Survivor Series, a project we launched last summer that we're very passionate about, continues! We created a video/audio series that actually shows women surviving the nightmare some call "sex addiction", and we call Intimate Partner Abuse. Who are the women who've freed themselves and what was involved in such heroic rescue efforts?
Click below to view the unscripted, unrehearsed Two-Part video interview Lili Bee just finished with therapist and outspoken fellow Survivor, Tania Rochelle.​

Episode 2: Part 1

Episode 2: Part 2

As the last month of summer continues to bless us with warm days and abundant gardens and the kids head back to school, we are excited to offer another episode of our Survivor's Series. These are the actual accounts of real women who reclaimed their lives once they freed themselves from the Intimate Partner Abuse that chronic infidelity, in all its many forms, engenders. We've written about cheating as a form of narcissistic abuse, as well, since it is the common component in recurrent infidelity.   

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"My personality is more about making things right, fixing things and getting them to work (in my marriage) ...but there's a downside to that: I had to learn to let go and stop trying to fix."

In addition to the valuable insights and lessons from Sandra's story, take note of the somewhat surprising circumstance under which she finally arrived at her decision to create a better life for herself and her children. 

In the tiny lull between Thanksgiving and before the impending holiday frenzy really kicks in, we wanted to share our next Survivor's Series episode with you, our readers. And because we received a fair amount of feedback from those of you who preferred the audio-only format of our last episode as it enabled you to multi-task while listening, we wanted to say that even though our new episode is a video, it's just as easy to hit PLAY on your phone and simply listen to it in the car, while making dinner or whatever else you're busy with. 

​Greetings, and happy almost-February! Hopefully you're settling into the quiet, more introspective days of winter and allowing the stillness of the season to nourish you. We are taking advantage of the shorter days and longer nights, too, by working on a new website with all original, fresh content that we're feeling pretty keen about. But until we unveil that to you all, we want to share our next Survivor's Series Episode.

This new episode focuses on Amy, a wife and mother of two young children who discusses her hopes for her marriage, her brave attempts to keep her family together even as her heart was broken, what was really going on underneath the supposed signs of "progress" in his therapy, and how she made the decision to make a decision. 
Along the way there was treatment-induced-trauma, too, which can be terribly confusing to sort out since you're there thinking that specialized therapists are the experts, right? His shingle says so, and we're always told Trust the Process.... 

Episode 5: Part 1

Episode 5: Part 2

Happy Almost Spring, dear Readers!

We have less than two weeks left until the official start of spring begins, even though for many of us, this winter was exceptionally mild. Nonetheless, we're eager to get our garden started and to welcome the longer days of sunlight. 

Today we have a new video episode for you as part of our Survivor's Series. In it, we'll be interviewing an especially articulate and self-reflective survivor, Dr. Susan K as she speaks about her experiences in her covertly injurious long-term marriage and ...what finally changed for her.

As she says in our interview:

"You are stronger than you think you are.
You have more power than you think you do.
Your life is going to change...and you're going to be happy again.
You're going to be at peace again. I didn't think I'd ever find peace again".

We think you'll agree that Dr. K possesses tremendous courage and tenacity which is why we thoughther story would inspire our readers to take heart and prioritize their own well-being no matter what is happening at home.

As ever, if anything you've heard or seen here rings true for you, or allows a submerged insight to come to light, please share with our other readers in the Comments section. We'e all learning together here!

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